hard days.

my beautiful little boy has been having a hard time with his breathing again the last couple days.

i'm not sure if it's because of the pneumonia, or just normal stuff.

his breathing has definitely not improved at all since his surgery.

:(

he's been staying up extra late at night, too.

(or early in the morning)

but he's still extraordinarily handsome.

i've been trying to get things organized and ready for us to go to Illinois.

still working on that one.

i've been really emotional and 'off' this week.

not exactly sure why.

sometimes when i see so many people around me so happy and content in their relationships and people getting married, it just makes me feel so empty(in that regard).

but i'm always genuinely happy for those people.

it's just a little hard some days.

but, then i stop and take a minute and look at this little face......

and everything is ok.

it's more than ok, it's perfect.

i know that i am right where i'm supposed to be.

where i need to be.

where i want to be.

the love that i have for him, for both of my sweet babies, is more than i could ever ask for.

some things in life are just hard.

and that's ok.

because some things are good.

really good.

<3