papa's birthday and other ramblings.

happy Sunday.

it's been a good day, a special day.

it's Papa's birthday today, and the best part is he's here with us to celebrate!

we love Papa.

my dad {my person} is the best.

so strong, so calming, so everything good.

i love it when he's here with us.

it makes me feel so much more grounded, safe, comforted.

i'm stressed, most days.

i'm lonely a lot.

i'm anxious and worried and fearful about most things.

i just am.

but i'm discovering that i have a ton of potential that i'm just now tapping into.

i'm embarking upon a whole new aspect of life, i'm experiencing things i never thought i would or would have to experience, for that matter.

it scares the crap out of me.

but i'm not turning around, i'm not running from any of it {some days i really want to turn and run}.

i'm feeling it out.

i'm working on letting the fear sink in and transform itself into something bigger, better....something new and good and less scary.

it's a work in progress.

i'm a work in progress.

i'm working on progressing.

i'm missing my beautiful boy.

my beautiful boy is missing from this new aspect of my life and that's hard.

i want him to be a part of it all, physically.

i want him with me.

i miss him.

i'm working on me.

myself---who am i?

i'm trying to find that out, trying to introduce me to myself with tenderness instead of criticism.

trying not to judge myself....who am i to judge anyway?

i'm working on it.

for today i'm trying to savor the moment and enjoy the love that is all around me.

there is so much love.

 

happy {Papa's Birthday} Sunday to all of you.

<3