tongue reduction surgery.

we're home from our very long stay at the hospital.

well, at least it seemed like a very long stay.

it was hard.

my beautiful boy is the absolute strongest person i know.

i love him.

here is our journey this hospital stay, mainly through pictures because i've already been updating through my facebook page.

and also, i'm just tired.

getting ready to leave for his tongue reduction surgery.

once the yellow socks go on, there's no turning back.

lots of hugs from mommy, more for mommy's sake than anything else.

handing him over to the anesthesiologist is always the hardest part.

the surgery only lasted about an hour and a half.  it went ok, but the recovery was going to be the hardest part...

 my poor sweet boy.

i cannot tell how heartbreaking it is to see my beautiful boy in so much pain.

he is so incredibly strong.

the hardest part for me is knowing if i made the right decision by doing this surgery.

he was in so much pain and had such a hard time after they extubated him (took this tube out).

and i don't even know if this will really help his breathing in the end.

 i really question myself as a mother when i see him like this.

am i making the right decisions??

am i doing what's best for my son??

he is so strong.

visits from Sissy definitely help.

 see how he fits incredibly well in his bed?  that's because i had my dad bring his 'bed' from home.

the foam bed my dad and i built for him that sits in his bed at home.

works great in hospital beds too:)

when he got the tube out he struggled.

scary 5 minutes or so.

and he was still in so much pain.

but he was able to sleep a lot, and i am eternally grateful for that.  it's so much easier for him to sleep than to be awake and struggle.

more visits from Sissy and Papa help even more.

so glad my dad was here to help.

this is the 'trumpet' tube in his nose that goes to the back of his throat that he came home with and has in now.  it is helping him to breathe.  when we took it out he couldn't keep his oxygen saturation up.

 he's so beautiful.

 finally headed home.

my two babies, a nasal trumpet, and a foam bed.

it was a long, hard hospital stay.

glad to be home.

glad to be in Papa's safe arms.

i love my beautiful boy.

strongest person i know.

he's in a lot of pain right now, it will be a long week ahead of healing.

i'm hoping this will help him breathe better.

i'm hoping it makes him more comfortable.

i'm hoping it was worth it.

i'm hoping he knows how much i love him.

i'm always hoping.

<3