Thursday, June 6, 2013

school's out for summer...

today is significant because it's the last day of 1st grade for my little girl.
:(


this was Aubrey on her 1st day of 1st grade.


and this is her on her last.

she's grown so much!!
too fast.
(also, i just noticed she was wearing the same skirt--i guess she hasn't grown that much)
 
 i love my little girl so much.
she did a great job in school this year.
excellent grades.
mostly good behavior.
(she was having a little bit of trouble being 'too interested in friends during class' the last couple months of the year)
 but i'm still so proud of her.
she's a good kid.
<3



my sweet boy is struggling a bit today.
he's been really agitated and uncomfortable.
but i guess that is to be expected after surgery.
he was rolling and flipping all morning and really fighting me while i was holding him.
and then i remembered we had his wheelchair we brought home from school....

i put him in and he calmed down enough to watch some cartoons for a little bit.
yay wheelchair!!


hopefully his throat will continue to heal quickly and his breathing will improve.
haven't noticed much of a difference yet.
but,
he's still super cute.
exceptionally so.
<3

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

hospital stay.

we are home from the hospital!
i'm so glad we were able to come home today, it wasn't looking like we were going to be able to there for a while.


yesterday we woke up super early to get to Primary Children's for our genetics appointment.
waiting for the geneticist.

i always have such mixed feelings after seeing Doctors.
i usually walk away feeling frustrated, disappointed, heart-broken, or just plain confused.
this appointment was interesting.
confusing.
frustrating.
possibly hopeful?
we met for about an hour and nothing new or miraculous came out of it.
the geneticist (a great, kind man) meets with my sweet boy every 1-2 years.
so he hadn't seen him in a while.
and he thought he looked great, and pretty stable.
(of course he looks great, he can't help being beautiful :)
he definitely labels him as having some sort of unspecified movement disorder, but that's about all he can say definitively.
which is so frustrating.
but we are scheduling another MRI to check the progress of his brain atrophy, or see if it has stabilized.
so that's good.
and while he's under sedation for the MRI they'll do another, more specific micro-array test to see if they can pinpoint any new markers that could point us in some sort of direction.
so that's possibly hopeful.
and while he was in surgery yesterday, they drew blood to collect his DNA to bank for future research studies.
which is also good, but that will probably be years down the road.
so we walked away feeling still frustrated, a little hopeful, and all the more confused.
but as long as there's a little hope, that's all we need.
:)



next we were off to check in for surgery!
connor liked the waiting room, looking at the fishies.

the official terms for his procedures:
laryngoscopy
supraglottoplasty
and epiglottoplasty

pretty sure i spelled all those wrong.


now we wait to go into the 2nd waiting room...

yellow socks so he doesn't get cold feet about the whole surgery idea......


one more snuggle before i have to hand him over to the anesthesiologist.
he looks super handsome in his gown, doesn't he??
<3


handing him over is always the hardest part.
:(

then i just wait.
......

it actually didn't take too long this time.
Dr. Muntz (i love him!!) came out to update me on how the surgery went.
he proceeded to draw me a diagram of what he did...
this should clear up any questions anyone has of how the surgery is done.
you're welcome.
:)


what the drawing says is that he did lots of lazering and stitching in my son's throat to hopefully keep his airway open for as long as possible.
and it also draws a nice picture of a possible future tongue reduction that we hope we won't have to do.


finally, they called me back to see my sweet boy when he started waking up.
i put on his Superhero cape right away to channel some super healing energy.
the nurses loved it.



 it took him a minute to come out of his deep anesthesia funk.



we got to our post-op room and started the recovery process.
he's still pretty out of it, but was happy to watch the tv.



then things started getting rough.
his oxygen level kept dipping down really (really) low every couple of minutes.


 he started getting really agitated and frantic.

 
i'm sure it was just the combination of coming out of anesthesia (he has a hard time with that), his swollen throat, and the pain.


oh, he's so strong!


mommy climbed right into bed with him to try and help comfort him.


 not sure it really worked....


 he got a little more agitated as the night went on...


 mommy was trying everything to try and get him to cough so i could suction the gunk down in his throat without going too far back in his mouth where his stitches are.



wasn't really working.


my dear sweet boy.


 his O2 levels kept fluctuating, so i would just put the mask on every minute or so between suctioning.


i stole some for myself, too.
deeeep breaths....


he was agitated and struggling until around 4:00 this morning, when i finally got a bunch of gunk out of his throat.
after that he calmed down and was able to just breathe room air.
yay!

so they let us come home this morning.
those are his going home pants.
he gladly let me put them on.

i'm so glad he's doing better, and hopefully after the swelling goes down there will be a noticeable difference in the way he breathes.

i'm so thankful to everyone who has been praying for us and sending good thoughts and comfort.
it really helps.

i love my little boy.
glad to be home so quickly.
<3

Monday, June 3, 2013

someone got a haircut yesterday...!
he looks so handsome, i can't even stand it!

my friend's good friend offered to cut my beautiful boy's hair last night.
she did such a great job.
he looks so stinkin' cute.

he wanted to look sharp for his surgery tomorrow.
very sharp, indeed.


i'm getting all anxious and antsy for his surgery tomorrow.
and also for our appointment with the geneticist.
we go in early in the morning for the genetics appointment.
i've made a list of all the things i want to ask/mention...
hopefully some sort of sense of direction comes from the meeting.

and then on to surgery!
hopefully it will be a quick overnight stay, if everything goes smoothly.
we're bringing his TinySuperhero cape along with us for extra super powers.

and of course i've got a good supply of tootsie rolls.
i think we should be just fine.
:)


Sunday, June 2, 2013

Happy Sunday!
fancy pants.
are.
on.



we had our running pants on earlier this morning.
well, walking pants.
well, really just yoga pants.
what i'm trying to say is we woke up extra-super early this morning to do a walk/run for my friend and neighbor's step dad that passed away a few weeks ago.
she put together a run in memory of her dad.
so aubrey, connor and i woke up early and walked with them to show our support.
we let off balloons at the finish line.
it was beautiful.
<3


and then we came and got our fancy pants on for church.

love these sweet babies.


silly face!

we said 'quick! pretend you're sleeping just like connor', but he woke up right when i took the picture.....he was teasing us:)


we still kissed him anyway.
couldn't resist.
<3

Saturday, June 1, 2013

the many faces of cuteness...

just hanging with my sweet boy again this weekend.

we miss sissy when she's gone.
:(


i've been getting him all pumped up and ready for his surgery on Tuesday.
i keep telling him the doctor is going to help him to BREATHE better.
yesterday i had aubrey pretend she was connor and mimic his breathing for 30 seconds.
just 30 seconds.
and she was having trouble getting air in and couldn't do it.
our poor sweet boy.
i think that made her love him even more.
<3



and now for the Many Faces of Connor.....a.k.a. the Many Faces of Cuteness
peaceful cuteness.


just woke up cuteness.



 trying to decide if i'm really awake cuteness.



yep, i'm awake now, cuteness.



and this is how awake makes me feel cuteness.



silly little pouty face cuteness
(this is my favorite!)



oh!  i need to yawn cuteness.



brilliant beautiful boy cuteness.


happy weekend.
<3