today has been a bit of a worrisome day.   i have been worried about lots of things, lots of people, wishing i could help with things that are outside of my control..... i wish i could just fix things for people i care about, or at least help in some way.  and i've become aware of so many sweet children who are struggling in some way and it just makes my heart ache that i can't do anything personally to help them.  ahhhhh!  

it feels like i care so much and i can do so little.

and i've been worrying about my sweet boy.  his breathing is still not great and he hasn't struggled like this for each breath in a long time.  it breaks my heart to hear him and watch him fight so hard just to get air. :(  he is such a strong little boy.  i was watching him as he was trying to take a nap in his car seat while we were waiting for aubrey's school to get out, and it was so sad because he would get comfortable enough to doze off and then he would miss a breath, startle and wake up.  over and over again.  but he was trying so hard to just sleep.  

oh, how i love him. 

i think the only way for a person to stop worrying about things is to stop caring about things.  and what kind of life would you have if you never cared?  so i guess i will continue to worry because even if i can never do anything about it, i will always care.

i would be worried if i didn't.

<3