it's such a difficult feeling----feeling helpless to help your own son.
but then he also has moments where he stares me completely in my eyes... it's the most beautiful, piercing stare and i love it. i can tell he's trying so hard to focus on me, to let me know that he hears me and that he wants me to know that he's here with me. i feel him looking right into my soul at these moments. i feel so completely and utterly connected to him at these brief moments where he really looks at me. there is no separation of mommy/son at these moments, i really feel like we are one. even more than i always do.
and that is a feeling i cannot describe-----it makes me feel so whole.
i hope i can hang onto that feeling forever, and always remember what i feel like in those small tender moments where it's just me and my sweet boy and nothing else. nothing else in the world seems to matter at these moments.
i kinda love that.
<3
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