too many thinks.

today i feel like i need to write, to get out of my head.

i have a headache, maybe it's filled with too much so it hurts.

it's getting cold here!

i do like the crispness of the air, but sometimes i think the cold makes everything seem more lonely.

or maybe it's just me, today.

i think i am thinking too much today.

i think.

all in all, it's been an ok week.

had parent/teacher conference with my sweet girl, and she's doing well.

(love her!)

she's an amazing little girl.

my beautiful boy has been struggling this week, with a cold, possibly with side effects from his new medication (nausea), and has been retching/gagging/dry heaving all week long.

i'm worried he's going to retch so hard that his GJ tube will come out of place.

it's so hard to watch him so miserable.

he had another 'blue' episode last night.

i can't say that i've noticed a difference since being on this new med.

sometimes i think it might be doing something, sometimes he seems more groggy/sleepy, but i can't tell if that's just because he's sick, or if he's just groggy/sleepy in a normal way.

i don't know.

i think i'm looking too hard for a change.

i just want him to be more comfortable.  i don't want him to be 'out of it'.  but i suppose if he's more comfortable that way than when he's constantly moving, maybe that'd be better?

i wish he could tell me how this medicine is making him feel, is he feeling anything from it??

i just love him.

so much.

 

that's one thing i don't have to think about.

<3