i just love him.

oh, i love my son!

sometimes when i look at him, really sit and look at him, i get so overwhelmed with emotion that i almost can't handle it.

when he looks at me, when he is really connecting with my face, i hold onto that eye contact for dear life.....but it's impossible not to cry while doing so because of all the emotion i feel.

 he is so overwhelmingly beautiful.  and perfect.
i get such an overwhelming sense of urgency, an urgent sense of love that comes when i look at my sweet boy.
i can't love him fast enough!  i can't love him strong enough!  i can't love him enough!
i want him to know how much i love him, i want him to feel it all when we're connected, his eyes connecting with mine for those few brief moments when it happens.
i want it to last forever, but i don't think i could handle it if it did.  the emotions are so strong, it's literally overwhelming.
i just love him so much.
it's such a strong, fierce love....there will never be words big enough to describe it.

i love him.
it's so simple, yet the most complex thing i think i'll ever feel.
i just love him.
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