Tear Soup.

i started taking aubrey to a counselor about a year and a half before connor died.

i wanted her to be comfortable with someone, and able to talk to them if something were to happen to her baby brother.

i am so glad we did this.  i think it has helped her to be able to have that outlet, to have someone besides me to sort her feelings out with.

yesterday she had an appointment with her counselor and they read a book called "Tear Soup". 

i wait in the waiting room so i didn't get to hear the story, but i did get to read the one aubrey made up.

it made me cry.  and smile.  and feel so proud of her.

she is such a good kid.

wise beyond her years, and so strong.

i love her.

here is her story/recipe:

Aubrey's Tear Soup

Ingredients:

•  5 gallons of Happy Memories
• 1 cup of Sad Memories
• 3 cups of Seeing my brother's room
• A pinch of the Tarzan Song
• Add some of The Connor Club
• 10 Blue Bracelets
• A few hours of Watching TV
• Visiting Connor's grave whenever you want
• Talking to mom every day
• 3 buckets full of Papa
• A lot of Art Projects 
• Crying a lot, lot, lot, lot, lot

Directions:

Pour in the happy memories, sprinkle in the sad memories.  Dump in seeing my brother's room every night.  Add a pinch of the Tarzan Song whenever it's on the radio.  Stir it together.  Add in some of The Connor Club with the 10 bracelets.  Simmer for an hour.  Then add a few hours of watching TV (Sophia the First works best).  Visit Connor's grave whenever you want and talk to mom every day.  Then add the buckets of Papa, a lot of art projects and all of the crying (which is a lot).  Let it cook on the stove.  Stir it a little bit.  When you see the soup turn into a heart, you know it is done.  Share it with the people you love.

oh, my heart.

<3