episodes

my sweet boy.

the tooth fairy visited him last night.

maybe he saw her because he was up so often...

he's had more of his 'episodes' today.

it's as if his airway is closed and he cannot get air through.

this makes him scared (this breaks my heart) and so his breathing becomes more shallow and frantic.

suctioning doesn't really help.

holding him close and tight are the only things i can do, just waiting for him to calm down enough to let some air through.  

i don't want him to feel scared, i just tell him to breathe....breathe....

i can't wait for our appointment next thursday.

i'm just praying there's something they can see that they can fix.

while i was waiting in the van to pick up aubrey and her friend from school, connor's 'song' came on----the tarzan song.

i rarely hear that on the radio anymore.

tears came and i just sat and looked at my beautiful boy.

i just love him so much.

it hurts.

<3