there are some days that are just harder for connor than others.  i don't know what causes his hard days, the days where he seems 'frantic' and inconsolable all day long.  he gets this pained look on his face that just breaks my heart.  he grinds his teeth, he's nearly ground them all down (the ones that came in anyway, his top two never came in, no one knows why) he has tears that come from the corners of his eyes and drip down his face.  i try to wipe them away as soon as i can, i don't want my beautiful boy to be sad.....:(   on these hard days of his, he arches his back and fights against me when i try to hold him tight....he's a strong little boy, sometimes packs a hard punch straight to the nose (i thought he for sure must've broken mine once, still trying to figure out if it was on purpose....:)   on these hard days he makes little whimper/whining noises between the grinding of the teeth.   he has a harder time breathing on these days, and suctioning him doesn't provide much relief. 

these are MY hardest days, too.  on these days i feel so extremely helpless and useless when it comes to comforting my own son.  on these days i wish i could do more, do something to help him.  i hope that on these days my sweet boy can feel how much i love him and get some sense of comfort from my attempts to ease his pain.  on these days i love my son infinitely more than i did the day before....