i thought i would take a break from my 'week before photos' and do a simple Sunday post.
happy Sunday.
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this week has been hard.
i just miss my sweet boy.
as i was sitting in church today, my lap, my arms, I just felt so empty without my beautiful boy. and as i was listening to the talks given, i had a few thoughts. i realized that whenever i was holding my sweet boy, or was near him----which was all the time----i felt such a peace and warmth and comfort because it was quite literally as if i was holding a piece of heaven.
my sweet boy was the closest thing to heaven i will ever feel or experience on this earth, in this life. and i had it right there in my arms, on my lap, connected to me, physically, all the time.
and then it dawned on me, as i was sitting there, that i can still have that feeling. i can still feel my sweet boy and feel that warmth and peace and comfort, i just can't feel it physically anymore. i can't physically hold him on my lap or in my arms anymore to feel it, but i can still feel it. it will take much more effort and diligence and faith on my part, but i can still feel all those things.
i know it will never compare to actually holding him in my arms. i know there will always be that deep ache, that longing to just hold my sweet boy and kiss his little face. but it is a comfort beyond measure to have the knowledge and assurance that i will be granted tender mercies from the Lord, that my beautiful boy will be with me in every sense but the physical.
this made me happy.
happy Sunday to you.
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This is just beautiful. Such comforting words.
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You have a way of getting right to my soul. Thank you for sharing the things most precious to your heart and for teaching me how to be a better person. I love you and your family SOOOO much!
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