last year around this time connor and i were just getting released from the hospital.  it was right before Valentine's Day last year that connor had RSV.  i think we were there 3 or 4 days before they let me take him home.  he had to come home and have some Valentine Oxygen...

 he's been really 'junky' these past couple of days, and night time has been awful---he's been waking up every hour at least---but i'm just grateful that he's been healthy and hasn't had any major sicknesses this winter.  it's really quite miraculous!  



 it's actually been aubrey who's been sick a couple times this winter,  and we've been so lucky that connor hasn't gotten anything she's had. 

i can't believe it's already been a year since these pictures were taken.  time is going by so fast lately!  my little babies are growing up right before my eyes.  i'm grateful for every moment i have with them, even the crazy tough ones.  some days i wish i could just push pause so i can take it all in...........i want to stop and memorize every precious detail about them.  i never want to forget all the sweet moments we have together.  i want to always know the way their hair smells and how they feel when i hold them in my lap.  i want to remember how soft and smooth their skin is, and how cute their little noses and lips are.  i want to always be able to see their bright blue eyes when they look into mine.  i want to remember all the little noises connor makes, even the course sound of his breathing and his painful little whimpers.  i want to remember it all! 

the future is so uncertain for us so i want to save these moments, as many as i can, into my memory.  i will keep them there.  to be cherished forever. <3